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Post by SprouseBrosFan321 on Jan 11, 2021 12:10:09 GMT -2
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Post by SprouseBrosFan321 on Jan 11, 2021 12:11:08 GMT -2
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Post by Matt on Jan 11, 2021 17:49:50 GMT -2
Love this. And to quote Metallica from Eye Of The Beholder - "You can do it your own way, if it's done just how I say!" |
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Post by Matt on Jan 12, 2021 3:04:22 GMT -2
By the way, Vio check out what my coworkers made me for Christmas!   |
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Post by Rikki Jo on Jan 13, 2021 0:58:25 GMT -2
This year I'm gonna be playing a lot more video games and hopefully this summer my fiance will pick up a paddle and hunt zombies like we used to!  Cool!  I miss playing video games and hope to get back to it someday. Though I still play computer games every now and then. By the way, congrats to you and your fiancé! |
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Post by Rikki Jo on Jan 13, 2021 1:47:11 GMT -2
Matt, do I tell you a secret??  ... but, don't tell anyone  , like you I will make the same mistake for another year, not only because I can't imagine my life without Cole Sprouse, but also because one more year he He was responsible for cheering me up many of the days that I was a bit screwed up, because just seeing her beautiful little face and her tender smile made me forget everything and I couldn't help but smile   .  We are repeat offenders, Maria. My motto is: I learned so much from my mistakes, I think I'll make some more! What is truly perplexing is continuing to make the "same" fucking miserable mistake over and over, again and again, into the gates of insanity... Yep, I still have my library of various Cole pics that offer solace. Often times, daily. Sometimes I pull them up if I have to make a stressful call. They are familiar faces that are there for me and I know they only want me to succeed. Jeez, I'm such a wierdo. I guess we're gettin' honest here.  Same here. I habitually procrastinate and distract myself when I've got more important things to do. I've been doing this year after year. Nowadays, I habitually distract myself with content of Rob Raco, the Cott brothers, and some gals, as well as the other things that appeal to me. They give me life and solace, and make me take my mind off of everything. |
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Post by María on Jan 17, 2021 8:16:45 GMT -2
Actually with you if I am a true open book, Matt  ... you are the only one who really knows everything about me, and I am so sincerely grateful to have found such a great and loyal friend here, I never thought that I could open myself to someone like with you... You don't know how much I love you for always being there ... Te quiero!!   You are right sometimes you are afraid to trust someone because you think that you will inevitably hurt them by letting them down ... but, it can also happen that you feel let them down because have hurt you someone you trusted, that really is more difficult digest. As for your boss and co-workers, I think you are very fortunate to have found such a wonderful group of people in your life, who have been and are with you during your difficult moments, you are right, their support is priceless ... It is also true that when you find a person or people who help you face your mistakes to try to solve them, no matter how many times you get confused and commit them, these are the people you have to value the most because you know that they will always support you. , really they are like a family to you, and that's really nice ... But, I also want you to be clear that there is great potential within you, and they have seen it too ... You should always believe in yourself, because not only do you have great potential you are also a well of infinite goodness, my sweet Matt I am glad that you feel comfortable enough with me. I like when people share sensitive or difficult stuff. I instantly want to be their friend, or at least get to know them. If I ever decide to step outside of grant work, I would like to try being a therapist. But I will have to go back to school and I am way to unstable right now.  "But, it can also happen that you feel let them down because have hurt you someone you trusted, that really is more difficult digest". - That is true and it can be hard to accept. Often, in addition to being hurt by them for violating your trust, you also beat yourself up for allowing it happen to you. Basically, you might take on some of the blame yourself. This particular thinking happens frequently with the victims our agency helps empower. Thank you, sweetheart. That is very kind to say.  Again you are right, what usually happens when that happens to us is that usually the person we trusted and disappointed us has managed to undermine our self-esteem in such a way that sometimes it is very difficult to overcome all the evil that he/she has caused .... With effort and great determination you manage to get up again and rebuild bit by bit all your self-esteem, until you become someone stronger, with more value, but ... sadly you will also become someone with a great resentment in your inside, and you will never trust anyone like you used to ... that's what happened to me, I just hope to find the person who can destroy the ice that is inside me right now and make me feel again as one day someone did. |
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Post by María on Jan 17, 2021 8:24:29 GMT -2
What a great truth, we are always afraid of something in our lives, especially when we want to achieve our dreams, and that always practically leads to distancing from your loved ones, having to go to another bigger city, with more possibilities for you. That is one of the fears that kills the most dreams, being unable to distance yourself from your family, especially when you know that in a way they depend on you, even if you know that you will see them again, but only after long periods of time. .. I think this is the main reason why many people nowadays no longer have children, so that there is nothing that separates them from everything they really want to achieve ... I know that it is an approach in which many they haven't thought or maybe they have, but that is one of the biggest fears. The truth is that we are full of fears and phobias that we must learn to deal with over the years and to be honest, life is gradually putting us all in our place, and it makes us see that even if we fail, in a way we always succeed, because everything that happens to us helps us to learn, mature and grow . |
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Post by María on Jan 17, 2021 8:36:07 GMT -2
How funny that the same message has reached us both through a family member or friend (lol)  ... you're right that meme speaks for itself without need a phrase, what made it the most funny was not the phrase itself, went the scared face that all had looking at the door of the new year ... jijiji To be honest, when I first seen that picture it reminded me of when I a giant spider has been spotted in the house.   WOW!!!! ... to be honest I have such a phobia of spiders that I would not even have stayed behind the door to see who was the brave man who came in to literally kill her, I would be the scared that runs away screaming from the house , who crosses the road and waits until it is no longer there to return ... do you think that is an exaggeration?? ... I am scared to death every time I see one ... I would run as fast as the famous mouse Spirit Gonzalez (Lol ) P.S. The gif of the fire made me laugh so much, although perhaps a little excessive ... jijiji ... but, it would be convenient to destroy everything if there were a nest of spiders living in your home, just thinking about it itches my the whole body (you and your thoughts, you always make me laugh so hard, Matt  ) |
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Post by María on Jan 17, 2021 10:00:01 GMT -2
You know??? ... Today I want to tell you something funny that happened to me this week, actually, to be honest, when I realized what happened I felt a complete asshole, but ... when I went down the stairs I could not stop laugh out loud at how stupid had been the situation is (lol ) Last Friday, after leaving work, I was totally exhausted, and when I went up in the elevator to my house I did not realize that I was dialing the wrong floor ... when I left, I tried to open the door with the key, more I couldn´t, I thought that Guille was on the other side and had the key in, I tapped on the door, but ... nobody opened me, I tried the keys again, but ... NOTHING, so ... I came back to knock on the door and I said out loud "Guille, It's me, Mom", I try again with the key again and suddenly I looked down, I saw the doormat and: "OH LA LA !!!!. .. FUCK !!!, I WAS ON THE WRONG FLOOR "  ... I was trying to open my neighbor's door, thank goodness there shouldn't be anyone at home, I felt such an asshole that I decided to leave very fast without being able to stop laugh for a long time ... has something similar ever happened to you?  |
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Post by María on Jan 17, 2021 10:08:54 GMT -2
I hope everyone is doing well ... I love them!!!   |
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Post by Matt on Jan 18, 2021 2:30:26 GMT -2
I am glad that you feel comfortable enough with me. I like when people share sensitive or difficult stuff. I instantly want to be their friend, or at least get to know them. If I ever decide to step outside of grant work, I would like to try being a therapist. But I will have to go back to school and I am way to unstable right now. "But, it can also happen that you feel let them down because have hurt you someone you trusted, that really is more difficult digest". - That is true and it can be hard to accept. Often, in addition to being hurt by them for violating your trust, you also beat yourself up for allowing it happen to you. Basically, you might take on some of the blame yourself. This particular thinking happens frequently with the victims our agency helps empower. Thank you, sweetheart. That is very kind to say. Again you are right, what usually happens when that happens to us is that usually the person we trusted and disappointed us has managed to undermine our self-esteem in such a way that sometimes it is very difficult to overcome all the evil that he/she has caused .... With effort and great determination you manage to get up again and rebuild bit by bit all your self-esteem, until you become someone stronger, with more value, but ... sadly you will also become someone with a great resentment in your inside, and you will never trust anyone like you used to ... that's what happened to me, I just hope to find the person who can destroy the ice that is inside me right now and make me feel again as one day someone did. I cannot say I know how you feel, because I have not walked in your shoes. Trauma is powerful and can impact nearly every aspect of your life. Healing takes time and we all cope with it differently. As horrible as it sounds, sometimes you have to just forgive. That anger and resentment is fucking toxic for your soul to continue carrying around. It impedes on everything you do. You do not have to forget what happened - by any means - but forgive. That forgiveness will be for you. But again, I do not know what it was like; I just want you to be free from this. My therapist used to tell me to remove "never" and "always" from my thinking. She also used to tell me to challenge my negative thoughts and beliefs. I.e. some of our thinking is just rationalizing the irrational - however real it may seem. |
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Post by Matt on Jan 18, 2021 3:37:20 GMT -2
What a great truth, we are always afraid of something in our lives, especially when we want to achieve our dreams, and that always practically leads to distancing from your loved ones, having to go to another bigger city, with more possibilities for you. That is one of the fears that kills the most dreams, being unable to distance yourself from your family, especially when you know that in a way they depend on you, even if you know that you will see them again, but only after long periods of time. .. I think this is the main reason why many people nowadays no longer have children, so that there is nothing that separates them from everything they really want to achieve ... I know that it is an approach in which many they haven't thought or maybe they have, but that is one of the biggest fears. The truth is that we are full of fears and phobias that we must learn to deal with over the years and to be honest, life is gradually putting us all in our place, and it makes us see that even if we fail, in a way we always succeed, because everything that happens to us helps us to learn, mature and grow . That is really true. I do not want children that much for some of the same reasons. That, and I do not want to pass on anything bad to them or fuck them up with my crazy ass shit. Does that make sense?? In regards to our dreams and goals, failure is what we fear, by every form imaginable. Mostly, my fear of failing is related to being abandoned. Side note: night-terrors are actually the most freighting thing I've ever encountered. Waking up paralyzed in your bed in some foreign place, and then this "thing" moves towards you until it is on top of you. Fucking hell!!  |
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Post by Matt on Jan 18, 2021 3:55:30 GMT -2
You know??? ... Today I want to tell you something funny that happened to me this week, actually, to be honest, when I realized what happened I felt a complete asshole, but ... when I went down the stairs I could not stop laugh out loud at how stupid had been the situation is (lol ) Last Friday, after leaving work, I was totally exhausted, and when I went up in the elevator to my house I did not realize that I was dialing the wrong floor ... when I left, I tried to open the door with the key, more I couldn´t, I thought that Guille was on the other side and had the key in, I tapped on the door, but ... nobody opened me, I tried the keys again, but ... NOTHING, so ... I came back to knock on the door and I said out loud "Guille, It's me, Mom", I try again with the key again and suddenly I looked down, I saw the doormat and: "OH LA LA !!!!. .. FUCK !!!, I WAS ON THE WRONG FLOOR " ... I was trying to open my neighbor's door, thank goodness there shouldn't be anyone at home, I felt such an asshole that I decided to leave very fast without being able to stop laugh for a long time ... has something similar ever happened to you? Haha, I bet it was a sobering moment for you when you finally realized why nothing seemed right. I would have been so embarrassed. Thank good no one was home!  Can you imagine if someone was? The look you two would have shared?? Not personally, but I have a story of another guy here at the sober house who recently mixed some of his medication, became confused, and then mistakenly laid down in his roommate's bed "naked". Of course, later at night his roommate discovered him. So many questions!  Mostly just ... Awe man, what they hell?! |
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Post by Matt on Jan 18, 2021 4:03:56 GMT -2
We are repeat offenders, Maria. My motto is: I learned so much from my mistakes, I think I'll make some more! What is truly perplexing is continuing to make the "same" fucking miserable mistake over and over, again and again, into the gates of insanity... Yep, I still have my library of various Cole pics that offer solace. Often times, daily. Sometimes I pull them up if I have to make a stressful call. They are familiar faces that are there for me and I know they only want me to succeed. Jeez, I'm such a wierdo. I guess we're gettin' honest here. Same here. I habitually procrastinate and distract myself when I've got more important things to do. I've been doing this year after year. Nowadays, I habitually distract myself with content of Rob Raco, the Cott brothers, and some gals, as well as the other things that appeal to me. They give me life and solace, and make me take my mind off of everything. I am currently struggling with procrastination myself. So much shit I need to catch up on for work and I am waiting until my bones ache with misery to do it. We need a support group for procrastinators. First step is admitting you are powerless over procrastinating - that your life has become unmanageable. |
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Post by Matt on Jan 18, 2021 4:04:39 GMT -2
I hope everyone is doing well ... I love them!!! Lovely picture. I hope to see you soon! |
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Post by Matt on Jan 18, 2021 4:08:34 GMT -2
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Post by Matt on Jan 18, 2021 4:16:27 GMT -2
To be honest, when I first seen that picture it reminded me of when I a giant spider has been spotted in the house. WOW!!!! ... to be honest I have such a phobia of spiders that I would not even have stayed behind the door to see who was the brave man who came in to literally kill her, I would be the scared that runs away screaming from the house , who crosses the road and waits until it is no longer there to return ... do you think that is an exaggeration?? ... I am scared to death every time I see one ... I would run as fast as the famous mouse Spirit Gonzalez (Lol ) P.S. The gif of the fire made me laugh so much, although perhaps a little excessive ... jijiji ... but, it would be convenient to destroy everything if there were a nest of spiders living in your home, just thinking about it itches my the whole body (you and your thoughts, you always make me laugh so hard, Matt ) When I was still living with my mom, she would come out of her room while getting ready for bed and request that her brave son was needed to kill another spider. Honestly, it is only bad with they are up high or on the ceiling, because they have the potential to jump on you like a suicidal terrorist. |
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Post by Rikki Jo on Jan 18, 2021 4:30:09 GMT -2
Same here. I habitually procrastinate and distract myself when I've got more important things to do. I've been doing this year after year. Nowadays, I habitually distract myself with content of Rob Raco, the Cott brothers, and some gals, as well as the other things that appeal to me. They give me life and solace, and make me take my mind off of everything. I am currently struggling with procrastination myself. So much shit I need to catch up on for work and I am waiting until my bones ache with misery to do it. We need a support group for procrastinators. First step is admitting you are powerless over procrastinating - that your life has become unmanageable. Yes... A support group for procrastinators is definitely something we need. And, acknowledging your procrastination should be the first step. |
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Post by Rikki Jo on Jan 18, 2021 4:35:48 GMT -2
By the way, Vio check out what my coworkers made me for Christmas! That looks so cool!  How awesome of them to make and gift this to you for Christmas!  |
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... but, don't tell anyone 
, like you I will make the same mistake for another year, not only because I can't imagine my life without Cole Sprouse, but also because one more year he He was responsible for cheering me up many of the days that I was a bit screwed up, because just seeing her beautiful little face and her tender smile made me forget everything and I couldn't help but smile 
... you are the only one who really knows everything about me, and I am so sincerely grateful to have found such a great and loyal friend here, I never thought that I could open myself to someone like with you... You don't know how much I love you for always being there ... Te quiero!!
... you're right that meme speaks for itself without need a phrase, what made it the most funny was not the phrase itself, went the scared face that all had looking at the door of the new year ... jijiji 
Can you imagine if someone was? The look you two would have shared?? 
Mostly just ... Awe man, what they hell?!
