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I'm so madly in love with you. I've cried myself to sleep at night asking myself why can't you be mine

January 4th

Dinner:

Chicken thigh with rice and red beans

What I often ponder is the tree in the forest scenario. How could the universe exist without being aware of itself? I think we are just a part of the universe that has become aware of it's own existence, enough to question it. I also believe we all share one common world or universe and maybe that is the ultimate reality that exist outside us, but we all have a different perception of it; our own person experience with stimuli in the universe and life itself. Even asking: what is life to you? What is it for? How do you feel about it? Sparks up different feelings and questions in people proving we all perceive it a bit differently. Concluding, that, probably 6-7 billion different worlds exist here on our planet alone. So, I always suggest, how can we all be expected to believe in relatively the same things, and have the same relationship with truth, a god, or anything divine to us? 

I like philosophical thoughts and debates such as these, because they make you think critically about elements in our world and not settle for an easy answer just cause it feels right to you inside or sounds pretty and quaint. You arrive at the best possible answer because it makes the most sense to you, logically. 

We do make our own realities in the universe and to me I feel that's the divinity of our humanity - higher cognitive processing and questioning and the ability to love. Everything on our planet was thought up by us (every religion, holy artifact, and romantic story), that is my largest belief I have. My other is that the human brain is still - if not the biggest - mystery in our entire own known universe. It is god-like to me. Possibly more then all the laughably large amount of stars in just our home galaxy alone. For those stars wouldn't exist without conscious realities gazing upon them in wonder.

How can anyone call themselves Liberal when they're in favor of bringing in groups of people from the middle east? Intolerant people who stone women in the streets and throw gays off buildings? If your one of those, your not a true liberal. A true liberal would be disgusted with you. There's no need to ship in all these people. We can still help people in Syria without taking in refugees. In any case, it's still not our problem. There's millions of pure bloodied civilians in the US and Europe who are homeless.

Gay Community A Culure?



Like many groups of people, the lgbt community has a sense of fellowship. There are lifetsyle customs & beliefs.

Even within the media, there is a stereotypical representation of LGBT people. There is truth to some stereotypes though, as how individuals dress and express themselves.

And there is also acceptance amoungst those who are one of their own.

The LGBT community has it's own flag, symbols, and products on the markert. By this we can assume there is some marketing and commercialism.

But is the Gay community it's own culture to some degree?

Most would argue yes and I'd have to agree. Same sex couples have their own familes, and roles to play. And like any culture, there is a sense of kinship. What is foreign to others is common to them

With me it's less of a surprise lmfao. 

Thought of the gaming culture at first, though threw the concept out the window. Cause the LGBT community is an actual community. It's a day to day thing, not a hobby. lol

Also like any culture, it's deep and rich

Your crazy 

Wow, after reading this over a few times, this was actually really good.
Some of this reminded me of paranoid schizophrenia or a horror story. I can't help but wonder how much was imagination and how much was possibly real. I like that about it. Also, clever title. Sells it.
If things never work out for me in the world, this will be me with my ultimate real life sex doll. Maybe not so far though. lol If it talks to me I'm burning it or seeking help.